Kaz Brekker (
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It's late. It's very, very late. And he has no idea what he's doing. He has no idea what he's doing.
He's not drunk - a little, maybe, but not enough to actually blame it. He's been at the club all day, finishing repairing the damage that he'd wrought with his cane. He'd thought about going home, but his apartment doesn't feel like home anymore, because home was on the tenth floor, with windows that opened onto the roof.
And what he is is lonely. And he's found something for that - not a cure. But a distraction.
And maybe it isn't fair. But what about life is?
He knocks on Jesper's door and then leans against the wall and waits.
He's not drunk - a little, maybe, but not enough to actually blame it. He's been at the club all day, finishing repairing the damage that he'd wrought with his cane. He'd thought about going home, but his apartment doesn't feel like home anymore, because home was on the tenth floor, with windows that opened onto the roof.
And what he is is lonely. And he's found something for that - not a cure. But a distraction.
And maybe it isn't fair. But what about life is?
He knocks on Jesper's door and then leans against the wall and waits.
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"Right here. We should do something very filthy on this couch so I can appreciate it whenever I lounge."
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Kaz raises his eyebrow, just a little, his mouth quirking with humour.
"What's your definition of filthy, Jes?"
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"Bend you over the arm of the sofa and have you," he suggests. "And whenever you sit here, you'll remember exactly why there are little snags in the fabric at the width of your fingers."
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Smirking a little, Kaz tilts his head. He nods.
"Sounds like something I might be persuaded into. What else?"
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He's not.
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"No," says Kaz, "You're not." He lies back a little against the arm of the sofa, unconsciously presenting himself. "And maybe I like hearing it?"
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That gives Kaz pause for a moment. He hates being sticky, hates the feel of it against his skin. He's not sure how he'd cope with that - he's not sure whether it would be a step too far.
"We could try it," he says, a little wary, but not looking away. "I trust you." He means it.
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But saints, every time Kaz says he trusts Jesper, his heart warms a bit.
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It makes a difference, he realises, that he's not quite drunk enough to be able to hide behind it. He looks up at Jesper, from his position half on his back.
"We could."
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"Saints only know what I'd do if I was left to my own devices," he says. A smile quirks the corner of his mouth. "Want to keep me occupied."
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He returns to toying with Kaz's shirt buttons. "You're a little overdressed for entertainment though."
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"So do something about it," says Kaz, smirking. "Don't look at me." He isn't the one in charge here.
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"You wouldn't have me different," he says because, miraculously, that seems to be true. He whimpers at the bite to his throat, though, his body arching.
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Kaz has been carrying around marks for years, but all of them are easily hidden by tailoring. Still, he likes that Jesper takes the time to mark him. He's not going to examine why too closely.
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Kaz finds himself quite content to lie there, subject to Jesper's ministrations. He lifts one hand, smoothing it over Jesper's hair, tracing the delicate curve of his ear with the pad of his thumb.
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Jesper kisses down his throat, his chest, and a heavy shiver goes through Kaz's whole body. He lifts his head, just so he can watch. Only inej has ever lavished attention and affection on him like his. Only she ever thought he deserved it.
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It feels like his skin is on fire, like every brush of Jesper's lips trails sparks. He leans up, shrugging out of his shirt, leaving himself stripped to the waist.
He flushes, uncharacteristically self-conscious.
"You like what you see?"
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