everymonstrousthing: (never visited the girls)
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It's late. It's very, very late. And he has no idea what he's doing. He has no idea what he's doing.

He's not drunk - a little, maybe, but not enough to actually blame it. He's been at the club all day, finishing repairing the damage that he'd wrought with his cane. He'd thought about going home, but his apartment doesn't feel like home anymore, because home was on the tenth floor, with windows that opened onto the roof.

And what he is is lonely. And he's found something for that - not a cure. But a distraction.

And maybe it isn't fair. But what about life is?

He knocks on Jesper's door and then leans against the wall and waits.

Date: 2016-09-28 05:04 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Zemeni and Kaelish)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
He feels it, hot and slick over his hand, and spares only a brief consideration to the couch. It's not like he bought it and, anyway, he likes the idea. Even if it's cleaned up, they'll still know what happened here.

Murmuring encouragement, Jesper keeps stroking, carrying Kaz through those last waves of it.

Date: 2016-09-28 05:26 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Desire)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
If Kaz keeps moving like that, then Jesper isn't going to last much longer. Already, he's arrived at a very good understanding of how to roll his hips, how to make Jesper need.

"Kaz," he says, voice tight.

Date: 2016-09-28 05:35 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Desire)
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Jesper groans, tries to think of the last time Kaz Brekker made that distinction, told Jesper he was needed, wanted. Anything more than tolerated. It makes this believable and it's all too easy to throw himself in, to let himself come.

Date: 2016-09-28 08:21 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Default)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
For a second, Jesper just slumps there, his body molded to Kaz's and nose pressed in his hair. Even now, after sex, he smells so good.

"Okay?" he asks, voice gentler than he should let it be.

Date: 2016-09-28 08:30 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Desire)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
He nods, kissing against Kaz's nape and then moves to pull out, to remove the condom. Then he's back against Kaz, indulging himself in kisses while he still can, before he leaves.

Date: 2016-09-28 08:52 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Smirk)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
"Yeah, me too," he says, inviting himself along. "I'm going to enjoy you while you're here."

Date: 2016-09-28 09:16 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Zemeni and Kaelish)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
"Doesn't always mean you plan to," Jesper says, pointedly not describing waking up alone. Of course he wants Kaz to stay. He wants Kaz to say things that Jesper knows aren't in his vocabulary and to feel things that Brekker never allows himself to feel.

He wants to pretend.

Date: 2016-09-28 09:26 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Default)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
Jesper tries not to be grateful or to let Kaz know how much that delights him but he knows that Kaz probably sees through it. He always seems to.

Following Kaz into the shower, Jesper steals a kiss, mostly to see if Kaz will even let him.

Date: 2016-09-28 09:48 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Default)
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It's strange, realizing he'd be on his knees right now if Kaz only asked it. Jesper just thinks of the kiss and pushes it from his head.

"Better?"

Date: 2016-09-28 10:44 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Default)
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"You'll get there." It's a platitude and Jesper doubts Kaz has any patience for hearing them but it seems important to say. They won't be the same without Inej but he'll find a way to be who he needs to be.

Date: 2016-09-29 09:32 pm (UTC)
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"Once in a while," Jesper says. He lets himself be drawn in and forget that this is an arrangement of Kaz's needs, of bandaging wounds that need tending.

But he's never been good at convincing himself to put those feelings aside in the past before either.

Date: 2016-09-29 09:41 pm (UTC)
materialnik: (Smirk)
From: [personal profile] materialnik
"I'll take what I can get. I always do." He smiles and steals a kiss, thumb tracing affectionately over one of those razor cheekbones. "Even if it's only twice a day." Now he leers.

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