Kaz Brekker (
everymonstrousthing) wrote2016-09-10 08:37 pm
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It's late. It's very, very late. And he has no idea what he's doing. He has no idea what he's doing.
He's not drunk - a little, maybe, but not enough to actually blame it. He's been at the club all day, finishing repairing the damage that he'd wrought with his cane. He'd thought about going home, but his apartment doesn't feel like home anymore, because home was on the tenth floor, with windows that opened onto the roof.
And what he is is lonely. And he's found something for that - not a cure. But a distraction.
And maybe it isn't fair. But what about life is?
He knocks on Jesper's door and then leans against the wall and waits.
He's not drunk - a little, maybe, but not enough to actually blame it. He's been at the club all day, finishing repairing the damage that he'd wrought with his cane. He'd thought about going home, but his apartment doesn't feel like home anymore, because home was on the tenth floor, with windows that opened onto the roof.
And what he is is lonely. And he's found something for that - not a cure. But a distraction.
And maybe it isn't fair. But what about life is?
He knocks on Jesper's door and then leans against the wall and waits.
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Kaz shifts. He's so, so intensely aware of the brush of Jesper's hand against his bare thigh. He doesn't ask to be touched, not quite, but he does lift his hips, a question, a request.
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It's maddening, that light and gentle touch. Teasing. He squirms under it, rocking up into his own fist as Jesper plays with him, and Jesper does whatever the fuck he wants.
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What Kaz has found is that loves being penetrated, actually craves it. It feels like a massive relief to let go and just let Jesper take control of him.
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"That feels good," says Kaz, and he's surprised by how good it feels. His eyelashes flutter. "I...fuck."
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Kaz's hand tightens on his own cock, squeezing, stroking as he rocks his hips down. His eyes are open and he catches Jesper's gaze as he plays with his cock as instructed.
"Need more from you, Jes."
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"How much more?" Jesper takes that as signal to let his fingers touch deeper again. "Tell me?"
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"Fuck me," says Kaz, surprised at how easily the words slip out, at how much he means then. "That's how much more."
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"Fuck," breathes Kaz, shaking his head a little. He squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, just concentrating on not losing his mind altogether. "What can I have then?"
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"Go get it," says Kaz, swallowing, stroking his cock slowly. He lets his eyes drift close. "I can wait."
He can wait. Just.
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Kaz isn't sure that he likes that word applied to himself. But he isn't sure that he hates it, either. The kiss makes him smile, just a twitch of the corner of his mouth. He stills the stroke of his hand while Jesper is gone, though, squeezing his cock, trying to find his centre.
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If anything, Kaz spreads his legs further apart to accommodate Jesper between them. He lifts his hips a little, squeezing his cock again.
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"Yeah." It's as much of an admission as he's ever going to make, as much as he's ever going to give away. He's got a better poker face than Jesper; they both know it. His breath catches when Jesper pushes a finger into him like that. He nods.
"That's good."
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