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[everymonstrousthing]

Kaz lets Jesper lead the way. It isn't the first time that he's been in Jesper's apartment but it's the first time without Inej, and that makes everything different. Once he's inside, he shrugs out of his jacket, leaves himself in his shirtsleeves, looks down at his gloves for a long, long time. Irritated, he passes one hand back through his hair and lowers himself down onto the couch.

"Not too late to turn me out onto the street, Jesper."

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[everymonstrousthing]

Kaz feels his face get hot, his breath hitch, when Jesper says that. Sex was never something that interested him, too tied up with closeness, with touch, but the world's different now and all of his cracks are showing.

"I don't know how to do any of that."

[materialnik]

He's a poor substitute for Inej in that way. Kaz can't have him the way he would a woman and there's no closing his eyes and pretending. Jesper takes Kaz's answer to also mean he doesn't want to and so he stretches out instead, body long and lean, and then returns his attentions to himself.

"I won't say no if you touch me," he says, gesturing at his own torso.

[everymonstrousthing]

The touch, the first touch, is very tentative, a brush of his fingertips against Jesper's ribs, the edge of his nipple. Warm. Very, very warm.

"I didn't say no," he says.

[materialnik]

The softness of it surprises Jesper, startles a gasp out of him, and he looks back up to Kaz. He's close enough to kiss but Jesper's experience with other men is that they hate the taste of his mouth after he's sucked them out, so he lays back and lets Kaz explore him.

Taking his hand off his cock, Jesper moves an uncertain hand up Kaz's bare chest.

"You didn't say you wanted it either."