Rat doesn't like to admit it then, but a spike of loneliness hits him at the thought of going home alone. He doesn't like letting it show, likes to pretend that nothing hurts him, even loneliness, even loss. So he raises his water bottle at Kaz in a mocking toast. "I didn't say I wouldn't do it for your company, just that mine's terrible."

They've both been in gray moods lately.